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Why I Quit YouTube

Hi Friends, 

Wow, this feels good... like I'm back home. It's a been a while since I blogged in this form, and I'm happy to say that I'm back. 

I started blogging in 2012 and at the time, it was the biggest professional accomplishment of my life. This simple act of putting my thoughts down for the entire world to read was something I never imagined I would do. Since then, I've self-published three books, hit the international bestsellers list and graduated from college with a bachelors in English (something else I thought would never happen). 

Anyway, last year I was being pulled toward growth once again. This time, I was being guided to grow in an arena I also NEVER thought I would be able to do: YouTube. I'd avoided cameras, and more specifically, video cameras my entire life. In fact, most of our home movies have me behind the camera, and if ever the camera pointed in my direction, a hand would automatically go up, shielding my face. So, when I felt a call to do YouTube, I fought it for months, but I couldn't let it go. 

Then in August of 2017, with very nervous energy and many many takes, I uploaded my first video to YouTube.

I committed to uploading one video a week, but as weeks flew by, and I got more comfortable with having a camera staring at me, I decided I would upload twice a week. My reasoning was, if I wanted to grow my channel fast, and grow my author platform, I needed to post more and more and more. I was surprised with was how fast I became comfortable with the camera in front of my face. I thought it would take years to get there, but it didn't, and so I followed my upload schedule from August up until this last week.

This week I decided that I wouldn't continue to record and upload videos to YouTube and once the decision was made, I weight was lifted off my shoulders. I came to this decision after reading Kyle Cease's book I Hope I Screw This Up. In the book, he says "if you have to justify what you're doing, then you don't really want to do it." I got this message in the most profound way.

You see, when I first started YouTube it was all about me overcoming a huge fear, which I figured would serve my audience in a good way--I'm all about, see if I can do it, then you can definitely do it!. But as the month drew by, and I had clearly conquered my fear of being on camera, my channel lost its way--as did I. My channel, my mission became about getting views, and subscribers, and collabs, with very little thought about the overall mission. Worst of all, this new endeavor took me away from the thing I really enjoyed doing, writing. I spent months without writing because I was consumed with planning, recording, editing and marketing my videos. It was too much. 

So today, I'm happy to say that starting and quitting YouTube goes down as one of the best things I could've done for my professional life. Now, I will have time to write and to spend my days doing the things that lift me to my highest vibration. 

For those of you subscribed, thank you for your support and for helping me overcome yet another fear. Now, I'm onto conquer the biggest fear of my life, public speaking. If  I intend on having a career as an author, and someday a motivational speaker, then speaking in rooms filled with people, is a fear I must tackle and overcome. Strange as it may seem, I believe my calling to YouTube was a stepping stone into this area, and for that I'm grateful. 

As far as my YouTube channel is concerned, I'm not going to deactivate it because I still intent on uploading content as it comes up, as it pertains to my career. Meaning, when I go to my first book signing, I'll record it and post it. When I go to my first book conference and I have my own booth, I'll record it and post it. In other words, important milestones in my career that will HELP inspire others to keep going. 

Once again, thank you all for your ongoing support and I'll see you guys next week, here, or my blog.


Until Next Time!



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